Relief

This week has been long. I don't want to complain at all. I'm grateful that it's over. I'm also grateful that I had an opportunity to take this afternoon off--since I decided to skip Concepts in Science--and just relax, take a nap, and even get a chance to go out early with Nathan to get something for supper. I even got a pleasant suprise and received an 96 on my Modern World Literature exam today :)

This morning I had my exit interview for my internship with my Coordinator, Brent. My internship is officially over. Again, my internship is officially over. I still can't grasp it. That is due mostly to the fact that I started it in August, and it's just become second nature to me to document my times, my thoughts, and stress over goals not yet met. It's a huge relief. Except for the fact that I'm actually going to continue on in my "internship" work at Bridge for about another month. I need Christian Service hours and I'd like to continue getting to know my students. I honestly still hate losing my Saturday and Monday afternoons, but I feel like I'm preparing myself (even if it is just a little bit) for the full-time work schedule I'm facing after I graduate this May. Hopefully I don't take this time with my students for granted. I want to learn. I do. It's just hard to stay motivated to do this week after week.

Nathan and I are still together, going on 1 year and 10 months this weekend. I adore him. I love that he challenges me. I love that he is an amazing example of faithfulness and trust. I love that he knows exactly what to do to drive me insane; however, even when he does I can't help but smile every now and then to know that there is a man so close to me that he knows these little details. I love our relationship. Of course no relationship is perfect, ours being no exception. We are committed to each other, though. That's the difference. There are things I need to work on a lot, but he has things to work on as well. I'm just happy that he is a part of my life :)

So for a long time I've been kind of in a haze with my relationship with God. In my mind it began in Bosnia. To be quite honest, I didn't think it would last so long. But it's over. The cloud over me lifted Monday night. It was like I woke up. My heart began to race. I'm not going to try to explain it any further, because I know my words won't do it justice. My friend Megan talked to me about a live recording on which you can hear an angel sing. Google it. The song is called "Fly". I listened to it, and I'd really rather not start with doubt on this thing. My heart raced after I heard it, and that excitement took me over a year and a half to find again. So just bear with me if you think I'm making something out of nothing. At least I can feel God with me again :)

I'm really shocked that I decided to write anything on here. My xanga hasn't been written in since October. I don't know. Haha. Cassandra said I should and I thought about it...who knows :p

Hopefully I'll get an idea of who may still be reading this thing.