Seeking...

Lately I have felt an urgency in my soul.

Sounds strange, I'm sure, to some of you (whoever reads this thing).

I feel an urgency to change, to seek, to run to Him.
I feel an urgency to live life to the fullest and glorify God.
I feel an urgency to change my friendships--make them deep, meaningful, and passionate for God.
I feel an urgency to love all people and to grow out of my bitter attitudes that come too often.
I feel an urgency to celebrate beautiful love in others--marriage of amazing friends that is spilling with love for our God.

In all this urgency, I feel alone. I feel alone in knowing how precious every day is with friends, family, and beautiful love for another person.

Does anyone else really get what I mean in all that I am saying here?
Probably not.
Maybe Bebo can help you feel it...

Tell me now, when does this start feeling
Like I understand everything I'm dealing with
First I was young, now it's all just happening
And what about the way I said that
Made you turn around and shake your head
Like I don't even know what I'm asking for

This could be all about just letting go
Or this could be all about just holding on

I can't get my feet off of the ground
I want to run but I don't know how
Can you reach down here and pull me out, can you pull me out, yeah
I want to scream but there's no sound
I want to fly to you somehow
Can you reach me here and pull me out, can you pull me out, yeah

Remember when I was young and hungry
I could take it in without much money
I had nothing at all but dreams and time to kill
Now I feel like I'm treading water
And I'm hardly real, I'm just trying harder
To make my way on the earth by standing still

This could be all about just letting go
Or this could be all about just holding on

I can't get my feet off of the ground
I want to run but I don't know how
Can you reach down here and pull me out, can you pull me out, yeah
I want to scream but there's no sound
I want to fly to you somehow
Can you reach me here and pull me out, can you pull me out, yeah

Not a moment too soon, you will be my rescue
But tell me how long will it take

I can't get my feet off of the ground
I want to run but I don't know how
Can you reach down here and pull me out, can you pull me out, yeah
I want to scream but there's no sound
I want to fly to you somehow
Can you reach me here and pull me out, can you pull me out, yeah